( This post was first written around 2015 when our daughter Hannah was in seventh grade.)
Our daughter Hannah is in seventh grade now but has been taking accelerated English classes. Part of the required course work is having have to write a weekly journal for 2 pages. She has been wonderfully flourishing in this challenging environment. I have been reviewing her essays weekly and it has been a joy to read those. Sometimes I come to realize that she is more mature than I have given her the credit, based on her expression and the trail of thoughts in her essays. But this particular one struck Aye’s heart. One day she asked about the houses we lived in Burma as she had to write something about a home that one’s parents or grandparents used to live at. I told her that my parents never owned a house as we were government civil servants and used to live in government subsidized apartments.
Fortunately, Aye’s parents owned a home in Magway for decades and nowadays one of Aye’s sisters and family live there. Hannah has been there twice and has some memories of her visits. With that and Aye filling in the rest, she came up with the following journal entry. That made Aye nostalgic, reminded her of the childhood and the deceased parents who lived in that house till they passed away. Aye’s mom and dad built that house in the early years of their marriage and Aye grew up in that house her whole life till she went away for medical school. Tears welled up in Aye’s eyes and Hannah got worried. Aye had to reassure her that those were the tears of joy, a parent’s joy from her child’s scholastic accomplishment. I hope, we have provided our daughter a similar environment so that she can always look back to the place she grew up, a home!
HOME:
In the winter of 2012, my family and I travelled to Myanmar (Burma). Both my parents were born and raised there. The picture shows my late grandmother’s house when we visited her in the city of Magway where my mom grew up. Looking back, the visit was extremely sentimental, being it the last time my mom seeing her mom at her childhood home. Grandma had passed away since. The house was never extravagant and fancy since my mom’s family was not that well to do financially but it will always be strong enough to hold the memories made inside of it. When asked what was her best memory associated with the house, my mom gave a simple clear answer. She told me that there used to be an unfinished part of the house upstairs that acted like a balcony and in the summers my mom would sleep there under the stars with her sisters. The sky would be clear, with the moon shining brightly, while the light of a thousand stars would sparkle above. That part of the house has since been given walls and a roof for extra living space, but my mom still remembers the warm summer nights spent gazing at the sky. The rest of the house is as simple as the balcony was. There is a “living room” with cement floors and a couch. There is a plain bedroom where my grandma used to sleep in. On the upper floor, there is an attic like room with three beds that my mom and aunts used to sleep in. However my favorite area in the whole house is the kitchen. If you wanted to know what was for dinner, you would step in the kitchen where an aroma of smells and tastes would invite you. During my stay, I would often watch my mom and relatives cook, feeling in awe of all the possible creations that could be made with a handful of people and ingredients. Our dinner table was always full of multiple dishes.
During our stay in Magway, my family and I did not stay at the amazing house shown in the picture. However, we went there every day, each of those days cherished forever. To a normal looker, that house is just a house. But to me, that house is much more. It is the place my mom grew up in and left to seek a new adventure in America. It is the place she comes back to with her family to see her rest of the family. It is the place that I instantly fell in love with at one glance. It is the place where my grandmother spent her last seconds in this life. It is not a house, it is a home.
အကို စာကို ဖတ်ပြီးချိန်မှာ ကျနော့် အတွက် ရန်ကုန်အိမ်ကို သတိရသွားစေပါတယ်။ ကျနော့် သမီးလည်း အမြဲပြောလေ့ရှိတယ်။ ရန်ကုန်က အိမ်ကိုမှ အိမ်လို့ ခံစားရတယ်ဆိုတာပါ။ လူတဦးခြင်းစီ အတွက်တော့ အိမ်ဆိုတာ ခမ်းနားခြင်မှ ခမ်းနားလိမ့်မယ်။ ဒါပေမဲ့ သာယာတဲ့ အိမ်လေးတလုံး ရှိခဲ့ကြမယ်ထင်ပါတယ်။ လူတဦးတယောက်စီရဲ့ အိမ်လေးတွေ အသိုက် အမြုံလေးတွေကို မြန်မာပြည်မှာ ဘယ်လိုစိတ်မျိုးနဲ့ ဖျက်စီးနေကြတဲ့ လူတန်းစား သတ်သတ်ရှိနေတာလည်း အံသြလို့ မဆုံးပါဘူး။
Thank you Ko Aung Lin for the comment. Yes in the end a home is where our memories were made growing up regardless of how big or small or grand or not. Sadly being Burmese many of us had to leave our homes when our homeland was in a turmoil for the past few decades.
She knows the difference between home and house.
We all miss those warm feeling of extended family in Myanmar especially in rural area where our grandparents built the big house with their hard work. But sadly because of army took unlawfully, there were nothing left except pagoda , built by our grandparents which my dad sent a special request letter ,not to destroy.
We felt hurt due to bullying of army coup , but comfort ourselves as Buddhist, nothing is permanent.
Thank you for kind words and sharing your personal experience Ma Hla Yin Chaw. Glad that you have found peace and forgiveness in Buddha’s teaching. For me I am still trying!
Fortunately, we, Final part I group of 8, were invited to above house for “the best homemademeal of the whole trip” made with love and surrounded by all family members thanks to Soe Soe Mar, who happened to be one of the best friends of Aye Aye Mar, was in our group.
We all have our home in our memory which always will be unique and happened to be our most memorable childhood events/memories were created….. For me is always my grandparents’ house in Toungoo which was built at the time I was born. ( My mom has to be hurried to hospital during the ceremony of “main pillar” was erected). We all spent every summers in our Toungoo house where all great childhood memories were created….. There is one house you REALLY recognized as your HOME and no other better houses you live will not be valued in your permanent memory as comparable to one unique HOME from memory and you dreamed often in your whole life….
Thanks Morgan for reading this and sharing your personal story. Yes in the end a home is where our memories were made growing up regardless of how big or small or grand or not. Doesn’t mean that we can’t call America our present home either. We can have two homes we cherish, right?